Are you waiting for permission?

The last time I went shopping, actually, the last 10 times I went shopping for the fun stuff, you know, clothes, shoes, feel good things that light you up...I came home feeling guilty. I discreetly SNUCK the bags into the house, hung up everything in my closet and disposed of the bags and boxes like they were evidence from a crime scene. Why? One solid answer would be GUILT...over spending money on ME.

When I spend money on my family, my husband or my kids, it's a no-brainer, I just do it but when it comes to spending money on ME there is a large amount of guilt that always surrounds it.

It's not that we don't have the money to spend or that my husband doesn't like me to shop…Nope, it's all me...Abundance block, anyone?!! I'll tell you how I know it's all me...I know because when I finally confess to the crime...I mean, my purchases...I make an excuse about it being on sale or how much I really needed it or how long it's been since I've actually spent money on myself…My husband hears the guilt of my voice and he catches me..not on the purchases, but on the guilt in my voice. He has always been my mirror. He assures me that it's fine, I deserve it, I don't need his permission, if it makes me happy then I should go for it.

So it leaves me wondering where does that raw and real guilt come from?
Why do I need someone's permission to help me feel that I'm making the right choice?
Even though he just told me I don't need his permission...I still feel like I need his permission!
Or someone's!
When I receive someone's permission or even if I receive someone's perceived permission it makes me feel as if I've made the right choice.

Truly, the root of the matter is that...I don't always trust myself...and that is a BIG OLE ABUNDANCE BLOCK...and that is on my mind today as I reach out to you. I'm on a ABUNDANCE BLOCK BASHING MISSION...and, GIRL, I want to take you right along with me. Believe me, we teach what we must learn...this is fact in my mind...though I've been on this path for a while longer than you...I'm still learning, that's what keeps it interesting for me, always learning, moving forward, together..
I LOVE SEEING YOU BREAK THROUGH THE BLOCKS! The light in your eyes! The progress! The freedom! The joy! It's awesome and I can't wait for us to get started. If you saw progress in just 5 days...Imagine what your life will look like one year from now!

But for today, I thought you might need to hear a different perspective on this...in case you were questioning your decision to sign up...in case you needed someone else's permission...

Just some quick math facts: Did you know the average Middle Class American household spends $100-$130 per day? Yep! And that's on the low end. By the time you factor in the mortgage, the utilities, car payments, groceries, clothing, shoes, sneakers, sports fees, daycare, the list goes on and on, we are spending over $130 per day.

My question to you is how much of that money are you spending to invest in your own happiness?

Give yourself permission to say yes to something you desperately want, do it for your family, do it for your community, do it for YOU. The permission has been granted. You are making the right choice for you and for everyone around you.

So much LOVE to YOU!

Jen

The Abundance Academy
www.jenheilman.com/abundance-academy